Everything Will Be Okay

I had many false starts when it came to writing a post this week.  At first, I wanted to write about my father-in-law and get out how much we all miss him, then I changed my mind and wanted to write about how wildly life can change from week to week.  But how I feel right now really sums up to the following sentiment which I found by wandering through Google images with the search phrase "it will be okay." 
Last night, my fiancé held me while I had a small meltdown and cried.  I tend to focus so much on taking care of others that I don't allow myself time to deal with my own emotions, so that when I finally breakdown or blowup, it seems that I'm really upset about nothing at all when it's really a bunch of things. That's just who I am.  I can handle being thrown into a crisis by taking control, getting stuff done, and planning things out because I am levelheaded and can think clearly by pushing my emotions down.  But in doing so, I stretch myself thin and wear myself out. 
When the dust finally starts to settle, I begin to feel and that's when I need someone there to help brush the dust off of me.  My fiancé has been that someone, and I am very thankful that we have been able to be there for each other.  I know it has been extremely rough on us - both as individuals and as a couple, but I do not regret going through any of it together.
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About Jay

I am an independent, levelheaded young woman who enjoys being spanked by my loving fiancé.

Posted on October 17, 2014, in Life and tagged . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. Biggest hugs to you, dear. We all need our rocks, and I'm sure you are his as well. ♥

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  2. Erica – Sending hugs to you as well! Yes, he has told me that I am his rock too. Thank you! ♥

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  3. I can only echo Erica and send lots of hugs. Remember the most important person to take care of is you

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  4. For me, it is usually when the immediate crisis has been taken care of (by me) and my adrenaline drains that I realize that I too need a touch of love or friendship. I'm glad he is there for you. With a hug, Jon

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  5. Don – Thank you! I'll try to remember that.

    Jon – I'm glad I can count on him as much as he counts on me.

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