Just another strange day in lockdown during a worldwide pandemic.

Today is my 32nd birthday. So much has changed in the last year; but with everything that’s going on right now in the world, I feel like there’s just not much to be celebrating, including the day of my birth.

I do want to share something that has brought me a bit of heartfelt comfort during these tough times. I received a beautiful birthday gift from my dear friend, Erica. When it arrived in the mail a couple of weeks ago, I really needed a morale boost, so I opened it early. I have been wearing the bracelet ever since. 💗

I find myself looking at and playing with it often. In some special way, it can even help calm my anxiety a little by reminding me that I am loved and I am not alone. Thank you so much, SIS – I love you! 💞

Like so many of us, I had plans or plans in the making. All of which had to be canceled, so we can do what we can to protect each other and flatten the curve. I’ve been working from home since last Monday and have been trying to avoid going out as much as possible. I’m honestly afraid for so many of my friends because there are so many of us in the higher risk groups. Please be careful and be as safe as you can be out there. Don’t underestimate the power of caring and checking on each other with a phone call, text message, or email. Remember that whatever you are doing, you are doing the best you can. I hope to see all of you on the other side of this.

Reality of Fear

You’re not afraid of emotions;
you’re afraid of feeling.

You’re not afraid of life;
you’re afraid of living.

You’re not afraid of death;
you’re afraid of dying.

You’re not afraid of pain;
you’re afraid of being broken.

You’re not afraid to be happy;
you’re afraid of losing everything.

You’re not afraid of helping people;
you’re afraid of being used.

You’re not afraid of being alone;
you’re afraid of getting lost in your thoughts and feelings.

You’re not afraid of giving up control;
you’re afraid of losing control.

You’re not afraid of putting your heart out there;
you’re afraid of trusting the wrong people.

You’re not afraid of being vulnerable;
you’re afraid of being vulnerable around those who don’t care what that means.

You’re not afraid of the memories;
you’re afraid of reliving the past.